But it is doubly odd and rare for me because today is my birthday. I am 60 years old. But then, my birthday numbers have been odd from the start. Here are some other strange facts about my birthday numbers in general:
I was born on 9-9-49 at 4:49 in the morning.
On 9-9-99 I turned 50.
My phone numbers have always had 4s and 9s in them (given randomly to me by the phone company). This is true for both my current home phone and cell phone. (Home phone has two 4s and two 9s.)
And perhaps the strangest thing of all is how the calender is even shouting at me today about my age:
It's enough that I turned sixty today without the calendar rubbing it in! And then there's the thought that at the age of 60 one's life is also turned upside-down. But do I feel that way? Not at all! My life is hidden with Christ in God (Colossians 3:3). What is 60 when a glorious eternity with your beautiful Savior is before you? I've just begun to live.
But in thinking about my life here on planet earth, I have had some questions as of late that have caused me to think about what I am doing with the remainder of my time here below. Mainly one question keeps popping up: "Am I really doing God's will?" "How do I know?" Perhaps, as a woman, you've had these thoughts also. It seems that being down with my knee surgery and also the anticipation of turning sixty have stimulated these kinds of musings.
This morning as I met with the Lord, however, those questions were answered. I read in Ephesians 1, "Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God..." As my eyes rolled over that statement, I stopped and asked, "Can I say that, Lord? Am I doing your will? Please confirm to me what your will for my life is."
As soon as I finished praying, 1 Timothy 5:9-10 came to my mind. "A widow is to be put on the list only if she is not less than sixty years old, having been faithful to her husband, having a reputation for good works; and if she has brought up children, if she has shown hospitality to strangers, if she has washed the saints' feet, if she has assisted those in distress, and if she has devoted herself to every good work."
This is God's will for a woman's life. This text is laying out when a widow should be supported by the church. She had to have been faithful in the things listed - the things of God- or, as it hit home to me, God's will. Though she is now a widow, the activities listed were what she did during her lifetime which included her married years.
Parts of or all of this text apply to all women depending on their marital status. But when I read it I knew exactly what I should be doing. Being faithful to my husband, loving my children and grandchildren, sharing my home and sustenance with the saints, being willing to do even the lowliest work for the body of Christ, coming to the aid of those with urgent needs, and generally devoting myself to good works are the things laid out as God's will for the Christian woman. (Other texts also reveal this. Read Titus 2:3-5 and Proverbs 31:10-31)
It was a comfort to be reminded of these simplicities. Sometimes I just want to make things so difficult. Shouldn't I be out in the far-away lands, suffering for Christ? Well, yes, if and when God were to call me to that. For now He has not.
This has been a a blessed day from the beginning - another birthday accompanied by the Lord. He confirmed to me that I am doing His will and that His will is never burdensome, but a joy. I so needed that!